Haven't posted in a quite a while. I have a habit with blogging/writing down things when I'm feeling crappy with anxiety and/or depression, that when I get to feeling better, I tend to stop writing. Just for the simple fact that I'm not thinking and dwelling on things that I feel the need to get out of my head and write down. I guess that's a good thing but I always feel kinda bad when I realize it's been so long. I'm on summer break from work now, so I've officially driven the bus for a whole school year, which is something I honestly didn't know if I was capable of at the start of it. It definitely has had it's ups and downs, but even with the stress and negative aspects of it, I still like it a lot better than some other things I could be doing for work. It's nice having insurance for sure as I've been reminded with having some doctors appointments with a specialist for my wife. Much nicer paying the copay then trying to find 100+ dollars for every appointment. I've been going to Emotions Anonymous meetings for a while now as well and I don't know if they help my anxiety or depression especially considering I haven't had either horribly for a while, but I love going and listening to and talking with the other people who come to the group. I guess everything has been going pretty good for a while for me mental health wise. Last night and today I've had a tinge of anxiety because of a stupid depressing reddit post I read last night. Which is pretty dumb on my end because I know better and I don't know why I clicked on it and read through it anyways. Of course now I'm just fighting a bit mentally to keep negative thoughts out and stay cool. Of course it doesn't help with me being off of work for summer break at the moment so I don't have as much occupying my time. Nevertheless though, I'm going to do what I can to keep it under control.
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