Wanted to make one more post before the new year gets here. Don't really have much to say at the moment, but I hope anybody who reads this has a great new years eve, day and wish you great vibes and good luck in the new year.
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Didn't realize stomach bugs could play a game of "ha just kidding!" until this morning. Yesterday I went back to work because I was feeling a good bit better. Then lastnight it decided to say "not so fast!" and I ended up in and out of the bathroom all night. I still got up and went to work figuring I could just tough it out. During my pre-trip on my bus though I was pretty pathetic, weak, stomach rolling and feeling like I was going to puke. My mom ended up telling me she thought I should call in and go back home because I didn't need to be driving while feeling like that. I eventually agreed and came back home and rested. I feel bad though having to miss days because of this stupid bug. My mom had it as well and drove today because she was feeling better but then this evening she ended up getting sick again, so it didn't just happen to me like that. Worse than all this crap though is the past couple days of this has got my anxiety and depression messing with me a bit. It's not as bad as it was a few months back by any means but it's noticeable enough to be annoying. Today I mostly rested and slept because that's all I could manage to do and after some negative dreams woke up feeling anxious/sad and ended up sitting there crying over crappy thoughts. I feel like I've made progress with my anxiety and what not over the past few months since I started taking the new medicine and hate the idea of regressing. The fact that my new psych doctor is adjusting my med dosages and wanting to start weening me off of the med I've been on for years probably doesn't help too much at the moment either though. I really need to call her and run all this by her when the office opens back up. I also have a physical appointment Monday and am going to ask about this chronic mucus, stuffiness that's been going on for weeks. I've thought about looking into some kind of therapy as well the past couple of days because like I said I really don't want to take steps backwards. Oh well, hopefully I can use the weekend to rest and feel better. I know in the past being sick has made my anxiety worse so hopefully feeling better will help somewhat too.
Well I ended up having my morning routes at work covered this morning because I woke up still feeling pretty crappy. I'm going to be going back this afternoon though since I'm feeling a bit better. I'm sure my kids miss me afterall, haha. I also need to call my psych doc and talk to her about my meds. This whole stomach bug thing the past day or so has got my anxiety, not horrible, but raised a bit. This bug definitely sucks. It went for my wife, to me and now my mom has it as well and she lives in a whole different part of the house. I'm just glad it only lasts a day or so. Now if I could get rid of this stuffy nose and coughing mucousy whatever this is that I've had for weeks, that'd be good. At least I have a physical appointment Monday so I can bring stuff up to my doctor that I need to. Of course I'd rather feel stuffy all the time than anxious anyday. Well I guess I better get cleaned up and ready to go back and disappoint my kids that I didn't quit afterall. Haha
My wife had a stomach bug yesterday, one of those 24 hour bugs that suck but usually don't last long. We've had them before but it's been a long while. I didn't think too much about it other than not wanting to get it. I woke up this morning and went to work as usual other than sleeping through my alarm which wasn't a big deal. Progressively through the morning to when I got back home though I started feeling pretty crappy. I tried to take a nap figuring maybe I was just tired. I woke up having to go to the bathroom rather quick though and was praying I didn't puke, I hate puking. I ended up having to call in and get my afternoon routes covered which I hated to do, but like my mother said, being stuck on the bus with no quick access to a restroom is a recipe for disaster. Everybody seemed understanding so I just rested and tried to not get sick again. I just checked my temp not long ago and it's 101 degrees F so not super high but it explains why I have been freezing even though it isn't cold in here to my daughter.
On top of that I'm a bit stressed about the psych doctor I started going to wanting to completely take me off of Effexor when I have been on it for so long. My brother is on both and they work good, and we usually react similar to medicine like that. His psych doctor told him that Zoloft can help Effexor work better if it starts losing it's effectiveness. I'm thinking about calling my psych doctor back and talking to her about not coming off of them since they have been working for a while now together. Of course today has stressed me out a bit but being sick does that. Everytime I start feeling crappy though I get thoughts of the articles I've read about stress/anxiety shortening your life and thinking "I'm so screwed". I'm also hoping pretty heavily that my kids weren't nuts today with the substitute cause I don't really want that reflecting badly on me. Oh well, I just hope this stomach bug is better by in the morning. It's going to be crazy enough being 25 or so degrees outside that early without feeling like crap on top of it. Haha Well it's December and my wife is freaking out in a happy way, because she likes this time of year. We have our tree up and have already started our shopping, you know, all the normal things. I've been on my new dosage of meds for a short time and I haven't noticed a difference really, but I haven't been freaking out so that's good. Re-started taking Vitamin D3 since I doubt I get enough of it since I'm not outside in direct sunlight much. Also am going to try and start taking magnesium since I've read a lot of good things about its effects on overall health including stress and anxiety. Also people taking it said it helped them relax at night and sleep better. I just know, since it comes from vegetables mainly and me not eating enough that I'm sure I'm not getting enough magnesium. It's kind of funny to me constantly trying to find new ways to keep anxiety and bad moods/thoughts at bay. It's like even when it's not seemingly actively affecting my life it still kind of is. I am just very thankful for my family, especially my wife and daughter as they help to get myself grounded and make it all worth it to me. Well it's Sunday night, which always comes too fast after the excitement of Friday night, so I guess I should get ready to wind down.
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