Woke up this morning feeling a bit anxious, with the thought of "OMG it's already been 10 days this month." fueling it. Which lead me to the thought of, "Go F yourself anxiety!". I don't know why I've been having morning anxiety here and there still, but at least it doesn't persist as much throughout the day. But hey, it's the weekend and it's nice to have some time to chill and play some video games. My wife's brother is also over this weekend for the first time in a while, so it's nice seeing him. I've been thinking about writing a short story or something like that recently about a fantasy type story I've been thinking about for a while. That sounds cliche I guess, the whole, "I'm going to write a novel!" thing. I like art, and think about learning to draw better, paint better and other things like that a lot, but never put any time into actually practicing and trying it. I haven't even gotten film for my camera I found at Goodwill yet, but will soon hopefully. I guess thinking about things is easier than doing them obviously. But I do love art. I have so many hobbies and interests on my mind all the time that I want to try out. It's kind of overwhelming at times, haha. I've been so tired in the week from work though, that I wouldn't be able to do any of it if I wanted to. I think it would be cool for my wife and I to take some drawing and painting classes sometime, so maybe we can do that. She's a much better artist than I am already, but it'd be fun I think. But for now, back to video games it is. My characters need leveling!
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Most people, including myself, like movies and TV series a lot. I guess it serves as a distraction from how crappy and stressful our lives can be. I also think a lot of us really would like our lives to be like a movie or TV series in that everything gets wrapped up nicely, all problems resolved and everybody lives happily ever after. Of course we all know reality doesn't work like that, but it's nice pretending. I see news stories sometimes where an old married couple, who was married like 80 years died minutes or hours apart. They were both happy in their late lives according to their family. I guess this is as close as we get to "happily ever after" in reality, which is still a nice goal to hope for. Of course if you are truly faithful and religious then in your heart you believe in much more than what we see and know here on earth, so that would open up a lot more doors technically. I'm not an Athiest by any means, but I find myself questioning things too much to be very religious. I guess I would be considered an agnostic even though I don't really like labels for things like that. It is a nice thought though, thinking you go to a place after you die where you get to see every person you ever loved that died before you, even people you never met, like family members from before you were born. Of course I'd hope that would include pets you have lost as well. The thought of one day again being able to see my father simultaneously makes me happy at the thought, but want to cry because of the opposite thought that that will never happen. In a way I envy people I know who are so faithful and religious that they live on faith basically. Even if they are wrong, at least they were able to live their life a bit happier through that faith. And I mean it's always nice to hedge your bets while you can, eh?
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